Who I Am

I’m finding that I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve drifted through all the different news...

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 00:51:54 -0700

I’m finding that I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve drifted through all the different news articles on yahoo 5 times today. I watched unlikeable movies and can’t seem to stay focused through them or any other TV show. After that I hop onto the iPad and play my dumb but addicting racing game and the highlight of my day was when I got some dumb part for my car. LAME. Afterwards I’m scanning the nongermane social media obscurities trying to see something that could change my mood or motivation, waiting, waiting, and of course, nothing. Then came the music listening part, which I was told doesn’t help anything, and guess what, it didn’t help a damn bit. So then I proceeded to lay down for a bit trying to dawdle away the day. 34 minutes later I was up and back downstairs on the couch watching clips of MLB take over the SCTopTen. Again, LAME. Plans for the evening fell through and arose again and it was off to the park to play a sport that I enjoy, but lack the proper skill needed to succeed amongst my peers and fellow park goers. Dinner at the place I eat at way too much was next followed by more time wasting TV shows. Maybe it’s summer and part of being out of school with nothing to do, or maybe it’s a lugubrious mood that I’ve been in on and off for the past month that keeps dragging me down. Who knows? I sure as hell don’t. Well the only thing i took away from today was a quote from my coach. He said, “20 or 30 years down the line, you won’t have the same friends as you do today, so maybe it’s better to stop wasting time hanging out with friends that have no meaning in the long run of your life, and get your head in your school work, something that does play apart in your life 20 or 30 years down the line.” Now it probably wasn’t exactly that, I have to admit I did exaggerate a bit by letting the anger inside take a hold of that quote and run with it, but it was similar in its theme. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe instead of a 34 minute nap I can shoot for that 60 minute mark. More time is killed that way. Speaking of “time” … no never mind a story for another time perhaps. Goodnight. See ya when I see ya.

Dodge, Chevy, or Ford. Let's see who tumblr likes most

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 22:38:01 -0700

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Why I don't Drink

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:59:24 -0700

Everyone asks, hey Mat why don’t you drink? Well its quite simple look what it does to do. Why would I want to put something in my life that can cause people so much pain. I’ve been around the drink all my life and never, not once have I taken a drink nor do I plan to. It’s been everywhere in my family. I’ve seen the effects first hand of what it can do to my father and the rest of my family and I’ll be damned if Im going to do that to myself. Never will I. That’s not who I am. That’s not who I will be. Thats why, so sorry if I’m not “cool” enough for you. Y’all do you, and Im going to do me. Thanks.

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Sun, 25 Mar 2012 13:16:22 -0700

History of the Best Friends

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 22:39:17 -0700

1st I can remember was Steven Simon. We went to preschool together. i remember out on the swings every at cross roads preschool we would see who could go the highest. After nap time we would build these big track like things for marbles. I remember his house and a few birthday parties here and there. Then I moved to Havasu. Mrs Sherwoods class or Mrs buddens class not quite sure, but i met my second not knowing it at the time. I called her four eyes like all boys do and made her cry :( Chelsie and I had the same teacher every year and did the whole ASB thing together. I just went to Phoenix this past year for her birthday in September to surprise her. My next best friend was probably one of my the most important that made me who I am today. I met Corey Hayden in the 3rd grade and we became best friends in the 4th grade. The biggest thing in common was that we loved WWE. He got me into it and taught me all the names of the guys and moves and everything. I swear we had sleep overs every other weekend when I wasnt gone. We did everything from building lego cities to having Wrestlemania with the action figures. We did it all, and then one day it all changed. One day I never came back. I never returned back home to Havasu and just up and left. I never really talked to him about it, but i think he blamed me because things were never really the same these last few times ive seen him. Well the next best friend I found in Mrs. Curtis’s six grade class. His name is kevin. this friendship was the best thing that probably could have happened for me. When i look back at it today my parents gave me the choice to choose which track i wanted to join for school. Not knowing anybody or anything about riverside I choose yellow because it had a month off after xmas break. Idk what would my life would be like now if I had chosen any other track. I felt like i picked the million dollar case in deal or no deal. We had our ups and downs with girls and what not, but at the end of the day were always still best friends. High school came around and nothing really changed until senior year. I guess we both kind of changed and separated a bit, but we are still good friends to this day. starting my senior year i started to become real good friends with jordan goldie. There wasnt a friday or sat night that didnt go by without us hanging out at his or my house watching movies and getting dinner. summer came and it was one of the best summers of my life. from his beach house to the hill to the beach, we did a lot together. even though it sounds gay Jordan was the closet thing to the brother i wish i had. Summer ended and we stayed best friends. I wish i could say that things are the same now, but idk whats going on. Idk why i felt the need to write this, sorta to take a walk down memory lane i guess…

You were saying…

Tue, 21 Feb 2012 01:49:53 -0800

You were saying…

looks like

Mon, 13 Feb 2012 22:59:32 -0800

Look like my weekends will be a little less eventful, but thats what happens what changes occur. I have been imposing my styles on some people for too long and you dont deserve it anymore so its probably best if i dont mess things up anymore than I already have. One of my favorite movie lines is from Oceans Eleven. it happens at the end when matt damon, brad pitt, and george clooney are at the airport and they are about to get on separate planes and Matt says “I’ll see ya when I see ya.” I think that applies here.

Lets go New England Patriots!(Super Bowl XLVI)

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 10:13:21 -0800

Lets go New England Patriots!
(Super Bowl XLVI)

Creator

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 00:09:49 -0800

Sometimes I don’t like what I created. Then I think, Well if I created that, then it has me in it…..That must mean that I don’t like me sometimes either.

Reliever of the Cold

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 00:07:54 -0800

I know what its like to need someone to talk to. To need someone to listen. That feeling of hopelessness is not one that anyone should feel. That feeling of being cold on the inside even though the heater is on and the blankets are covering, no one deserves to feel that. Its the worst feeling in the world. Just having the person you care the most about there to be able to listen to you and help you out, that is so meaningful and I don’t think the listener knows, but it really helps. So when it comes down to it, I know what its like to be the talker, the complainer, the crazy, the unstable, and sad one. I know all to well what that is like and I also know the relief that comes with having that someone there to listen. Thats why I like to be there for people to talk to and listen because I know how much it means to me so the least I could do is pass the favor on to someone else to take away the cold feeling on the inside. The problem that exists is that theres not to many people that care anymore. Sure they will listen, but they don’t see beyond the words. They don’t see the truth and the meaning behind it all. I guess thats what I want to change. Take care. Go PATS!

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Sat, 28 Jan 2012 09:50:48 -0800

Where’d you read that shit? You believe that shit? All cuz some lame ni**a tweet that shit....

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 22:46:41 -0800

Where’d you read that shit? You believe that shit? All cuz some lame ni**a tweet that shit. Have u seen my shows Have u seen my hoes? If I wasn’t hot would they be so thick

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Thu, 19 Jan 2012 13:51:39 -0800

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Tue, 17 Jan 2012 08:24:15 -0800

Rob Gronkowski —- 10 receptions. 145 yards. 3 TDs.

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 12:29:50 -0800

Rob Gronkowski —- 10 receptions. 145 yards. 3 TDs.

PATRIOTS v. BRONCOS HALFTIME RECAP

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 00:32:56 -0800

the-rising-tides:

BRADY—>GRONK

BRADY—>GRONK

BRADY—>GRONK

GET USED TO IT FUCKERS!!! GO PATRIOTS

loosenyourtie: FUCKING GRONK.

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 00:32:44 -0800

loosenyourtie:

FUCKING GRONK.